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Woo...
Its our honeymoon. I was less nervious to play in my first game then I am about playing at gencon. >.< Damnit what ever happened to long walks on the beach, and nights that last forever... Seriously!

My only real goal while at gencon is to finally play a character that is mine. A character that I will tell stories about. A character that I will love as much as Bobby loves his. I just don't know what kind of character that is yet...
Pft...

Well I have to jet, Bobs parents are comming over, and I have yet to change from my jammies.

Heartland I Loved Her First Lyrics
Look at the two of you dancing that way
Lost in the moment and each others face
So much in love your alone in this place
Like there's nobody else in the world
I was enough for her not long ago
I was her number one
She told me so
And she still means the world to me
Just so you know
So be careful when you hold my girl
Time changes everything
Life must go on
And I'm not gonna stand in your way

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she'd find you someday
But it still hard to give her away
I loved her first

How could that beautiful woman with you
Be the same freckle face kid that I knew
The one that I read all those fairy tales to
And tucked into bed all those nights
And I knew the first time I saw you with her
It was only a matter of time

But I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
And I prayed that she'd find you someday
But its still hard to give her away
I loved her first

From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a father runs deep
Someday you might know what I'm going through
When a miracle smiles up at you
I loved her first

So I went to a Busch Series race. It was... Fucking Awesome!!!
There are pictures in my Deviant Art (scraps section): http://aclentz.deviantart.com/gallery/scraps/
Dale Jr. won over all Hamlin came in sixth, and I have so much Denny Hamlin stuff!
If you don't want to wait to see pictures, and hear stories, check out my deviant art.

Emily Dickinson:

COME slowly, Eden!
Lips unused to thee,
Bashful, sip thy jasmines,
As the fainting bee,

Reaching late his flower, 5
Round her chamber hums,
Counts his nectars—enters,
And is lot in balms!

Its not that I don't know you
Its not that your (really) that far
Its not that I can't call you
Where ever it is that you are.

Its just that I can't see you
and hold you in my arms
to take all of your fear away
and protect you from the harm.

I can't whisper that I love you
I can't make it all okay
I can't fix the things that Ive done wrong
I can't make them go away.

Just know in your heart I love you
and that will never change
Forever and for always
how long my love will range.

(Its sappy its emotional, its every thing an LJ post should be and more... and its well past time for bed.
Night all...)

So today while I was sitting at home amongst my brothers magic cards which has increased ten fold since I got back I found myself thinking "This feels a little more like home." o.O
I know there are at least a few who will read this and understand it...

Dear friends,

I am an idiot.
I have no friends down here, I have no privacy down here. I have a fiance about 85.9 miles away, and a group of friends I don't disurve to keep.
Thats right my best friends I have ever known... are in no way anywhere near me. The man I love, Is almost 100 miles away. I could have avoided this, I could change it...
Yep...
Im an idiot.
I think Im going to go to bed, night all.

...Angst...
(were where you in my teenaged years?)

Read the title, then read it about a hundred times more, because that is the most exciting thing to happen in the past three months! It has me in wedding hyper drive, which is starting to scare my mother. I will say that I am not envious of a wedding planers job, dealing with brides to be on a daily basis would well... suck, but to be the bride able to wreak havoc on someone elses day...
admittedly is fun.
That all being said I think we may have agreed on a day (though I still have to run it past Bobby's mom to see what she thinks.) But september first of 2007 is the tentitive date. I reasoned it out in a long winded explanation, but to shorten it down... Monday september third is Labor Day, which means every one has an extra day to travel (due to the long weekend)... Which also means every one had better be there!!!
(Rawr!)
Yay...
The biggest debate right now... Blue, green or red.
The dress is an ivory color, with hints of pink in it, but I hate all things pink (except this dress god blessed its beautiful!) So that as a color scheme for the wedding is totally out.

But the phone is ringing so I had better go, I will give mor info later.

People fell off the face of the planet! Damn does no one know my phone number...
James, Erica... I know you both have it... Damn it!!!!

That rant being over, I got a new job. At Subway making Subs, and opening/ closing the store...
Thats right kids if all goes right in two weeks somebody is going to trust me with the key to their business... W00T!

Other then that its honestly been really lonely around here not to say that I don't have friends down here, but I only have a friend down here, and its depressing. I miss everything about saginaw (with the exception of classes of course). From the late nights out to... the late nights out...?
Even just hanging out in the dorm, or going to Len and Jerrys, passing people in the hall that I know, or constantly running in to class mates out side of class, or my personal favorite "hey babe you wanna hang out."...
Oh yeah...
Paved roads I miss paved roads...
As does my car, it reminds me every day how much it misses paved roads...

Just in case you didn't know when dirt roads get wet they wash out, when dirt roads wash out they get rough and cars HATE rough roads...

So thats what it comes down to kids, Im back at home with mom and dad, at least for now, and working at subway with no friends except one. I miss saginaw, I miss my friends and I miss my fiance.

Y-a-Y...

This is fun!!!

Find the third letter in your first name:
A-Beautiful
B-Christian
C-Pretty
D-Hairy
E-Gorgeous
F-Retarded
G-Boyish
H-Preppy
I-Girly
J-Cheezy
K-Punky
L-Popular
M-Slutty
N-Gangster
O-Hot
P-Gay
Q-Sexy
R-Hot
S-Lesbian
T-Emo
U-Ugly
V-Wonderful
W-Geeky
X- Under-appreciated
Y-Bitchy
Z-Over-appreciated

Now the second letter in your last name:

A-Slut
B-Boy
C-Bitch
D-Obsesser
E-Sex machine
F-motherfucker
G-Geek
H-Jew
I-Girl
J-Goth
K-Nerd
L-Retard
M-Beauty queen
N-Crackwhore
O-Whore
P-Punk
Q-Queen
R-Alcoholic
S-Asshole
T-Fucker
U-Princess
V-Jackass
W-Babe
X-Scaredy-cat
Y-Coward
Z-Chocoholic

Now What's Your Favorite Color:

Red- Who's Good With My Hands
Blue- Who Looks At Porn 24/7
Orange- Who Likes It In The Butt
Yellow- Who Wants To Have Sex With You
Green- Who Will Do Anything For Sex
Pink- Who is beauitful
Purple- Who Will Rock Your World
Black- Who Likes Bondage
White- Who Masturbates At Work

NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE NAME & STATEMENT YOU GOT BEGINNING WITH " Im a _____ _____ _____ " OR HAVE BAD RELATIONSHIP FOR THE NEXT 25 YEARS..

Answer honestly, and annon, I will guess who you are by your responses.
Then ask me one question to which I will answer to the best of my ability.
Questions...

How many times have we met?

Are we Friends?

Where did we meet?

A favorite memory of you and I?

W00t I am in the best mood I have been in for quite a while. For no good reason at all...
I hung out with a good friend, saw my angel, talked to my mom, and went to class...
It was a good day all in all.
Im Extatic. Im in love, Im energetic, I have good friends, a loving family, the greatest Fiance in the world! Im Happy!!!
Im happy...
For so many reasons, and thanks to so many people. I love you Mom, and Bobby, and Steph... Its been a beautiful day thanks to all of you.

But now it is night time... and I need bed...

Last night I walked out of class and did (as I usually do) called my boyfriend to see if we where going to kareoke that night, rather then finding out that I was told "Im comming over..."
I thought cool as I hung up and continued walking through the coridors of the school.
I called him from C-Store because it was raining like insanity and I didn't want to walk the rest of the way to my dorm. He seemed a little quiet, and kept insisting we go for a walk (in the rain), and it took some crazy convincing for me to go.
It took until about the unity room before I realized he was setting up a moment, about doan before I realized were we where headed, and about the doors going outside before I compleatly realized what was about to happen.
We stood in the amphithearter staring at the bell tower which had an almost angelic haze because of the rain, and he just blurted out "Amanda will you marry me?" Despite the fact that I had expected it, actually hearing the words threw me, I was compleatly stuned stupid for about half a second before I managed to say yes.
I called my mom and in that moment for her the dogs made a mess on the floor, the roof was leaking on to the television, and he daughter called to tell her she had just gotten engaged. Oh my god I was so nervious about that, I wanted her to be happy for me and I was so scared that she wouldn't be. Lets just end that paragraph with I love my mom.
My aunt Judy though not as giddy as I was was happy for me, I still have to call my grandpa, and of course the Lentz family at some point I suppose. I'm going to wait a while on that one, I'm to happy right now to take any crap from them...
Try this one on for size folks Amanda Christin Brandi.
I like it!